Full Disclosure

There are times when I wonder just how "honest" we are with each other, with ourselves. In fact, I wonder just how honest we can be, given that "honesty" requires something like full disclosure, and it seems likely that we simply can't get "full disclosure" of all of our hopes, fears, habits, weaknesses and disabilities. It generally takes a crisis of some magnitude to surface and qualify the nature of some of our worst defects, or greatest strengths. Or both. In the meantime, we swim around the worlds we've created blissfully (as much as possible) unaware of how much of those worlds are of our own creation, and how much are beyond our ken. Or perhaps I'm generalizing from my own specific experience--reinforcing my point-of-view without truly "connecting". If we could "only connect" as Forster so adroitly put it. (Please read some E.M.Forster if you haven't already done so! I'd start with Where Angels Fear To Tread, A Room With A View, and Howard's End. In the interest of "full disclosure" I have included the link to Amazon.com for convenience, not as an endorsement.)

I wrote that in 2007. Gad. It sat in my blog post hall of crap because I was trapped by inertia. Again. And again. Oh well. I'm posting this in the interest of "full disclosure", but not because I necessarily feel it's uplifting or enlightening, or in any way useful, but simply because today, right now, I have the urge to do so.